Today I went into the nursery that Amelia is starting at and arranged a home visit for her to meet her key worker. Everything seems more real now. I've always found it difficult seperating with Amelia, I let myself get so attached to her that when she does her own thing I feel really left behind. Her starting nursery is such a big step for her, and I know I will be so proud; but it also worries me that she will be there without me. If she hurts herself, mummy won't be there to kiss it better. She will learn to trust and get support from other people and I have to accept that. She will love nursery, I know she will; which will make me feel so much more at ease and accept that she is growing up that little bit more.
I've never have 'me time' since I've had Amelia, and now I will have 4 hours to myself for 3 days a week and I have no clue what I am going to do to fill that time. Once the baby has come I know that I will still have stuff to do, as parenting the baby will keep me busy while Amelia isn't around; but until then I have to learn to be my own person again. It's a 20 minute walk to Amelia's nursery, and I don't really see or hang out with anybody but I'm hoping that I can meet some other parents at the school that will be in the same situation and maybe we can help each other.
